Having a rough week. Faith is being tested in such a hugh way. I remember the words of a dear friend whenever I question the Lord. She reminds me that His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and that I will not always understand what goes on around me.
I have a friend of 20 years who is battling cancer. She has been fighting for about a year and a half. She is now entering round 3 of Chemo. There are thousands of believers praying for her including me but she is now ill again. I just can't wrap my brain around it. I went to pray last night and literally could find no words. I did not like that feeling. I felt like I was failing my friend.
Now more than ever I need to cling to what I KNOW to be true. Jesus is still in control even though I will not always understand his hand, Jesus loves me, He does hear my cries and prayers, His will is perfect and He WILL return again some day to make all things new and for those believers who go on before us He will make whole. This I DO know and will meditate on. Father, forgive me for my uncertainty and help me to lean on you and be strong for those around me.